I like to plan ahead of time well now I do. I don’t like being rushed! When I do rush I feel like I could’ve gotten a better outcome when I am done doing whatever I was doing. That is why I already looking up birthday themes and cookie cutters and all that fund stuff. Anyways that is not the reason for this post. The ULTIMATE reason for this post is to yellow or not to yellow?
Now you’re probably asking yourself “what is she talking about?” “what does she want to yellow or not yellow?” I know I would be asking my self the same thing. Wait for it………..
We are taking family pictures on April 4, 2014 at 9 am!
My biggest dilemma with this photoshoot is the color scheme. Wait there is more we are not just the only ones taking pictures Tee’s dad and wife along with their kids are taking pictures with us. So in total we will be 9 in the picture. I have already talked to Shani (tees stepmom she’s awesome by the way) about what colors we should wear. We both were thinking the same YELLOW and white (cant do a white colors because then you wont be able to see it lol) I have dressed Kason in yellow before and let me tell you he looks handsome! Not just saying that because he is my son he honestly looks handsome in colors that I really don’t wear. His skin color compliments the color. Tee has also worn yellow before and he looks great. Me and Noah however have never worn yellow. Why? you ask well I simply don’t like yellow,brown,green,orange, or any light colors like the ones I just listed. But I have challenged my self to try new things this year. So I am on the hunt for a yellow and white dress or an all white cute dress! I cannot and repeat cannot get an all yellow dress I don’t know what shoes to wear with and all yellow dress. So my planning begins I am already looking online because spring is upon us an I know there will be plenty of white and yellow all around the mall and smalls stores around me!! I already have the kids and Tees outfit down white jeans or shorts and yellow shirts. Im telling you finding outfits for them is the easy part finding one for me is like looking for a needle in a hay stack.
So I recently started to look into birthday themes for Kason’s first birthday. Its months away by the way……with that being said my Tee thinks im starting way to early. I on the other hand think im being super smart about it because Kason turns 1 on June and Noah turns 6 on August. So basically I will only have a month to plan Noahs. Well I have come to a conclusion why not plan ahead of time so everything just wont be done last minute. Now I am not getting anything yet. I just want to have a theme picked out and have an idea of the decorations that I am going to do and all that. Noah will be 6 so I will let him pick out the theme for his. I already have an idea of what he wants maybe ninja turtles and if he does pick that then I have the cutest idea for the balloons and goodie bags!!!Now if he chooses like say spiderman I may struggle. Kason is too little to pick out his theme so me being the awesome mom that I am I will be choosing for him. At first I was set on Mickey Mouse because I just know I can do so much with that theme. Then I thought about it everybody does Mickey Mouse and any other cartoon character. I want to do something different and cute. I went online and found so many ideas! So this is my list for Kasons themes well at least my top choices
Balloons (like the movie Up) but instead of having the characters I can just make a bunch of balloons decorations
Little Man (ties/bowties and mustaches!) Now this is my ultimate favorite!
Owls (I have an obsession with owls) but I think this will be a bit tricky
Prince Kason (basically a bunch of crowns)
Blue (exactly what it sounds like just all blue decorations)
So this are my top 5 there is one problem well not such a problem but a big deal kind of Kason was born on my dads birthday and Tees birthday (I know this is like so weird to me but it has convinced me that me and Tee are totally made for each other lol) so I will have to kind of convince my dad to make his birthday party if he is having one some other day. Kasons party falls on a Sunday and Noah’s on a Thursday which means I will be making his on Saturday.
I am so excited to plan the kids birthday party!!!!!!!!
I know some times you feel like you live for everybody else. You rather see people around you happy, you rather them have the last of your food, you rather them be warm, but what about you? I know you ask yourself that all the time. I hear you. I always hear you ask “but who thinks about me?” well heres your answer I do. Sometimes you put yourself before others because deep down you feel its the right thing to do. Hey! and that’s okay you care way to much and that’s okay too. That’s just who YOU are! Its okay. People tell you that you are too nice. Well you cant be mean all the time now can you? You try and where does that get you? NOWHERE! because then you feel bad. Some people think your soft and that cannot be strong. Ive seen how strong you are. I was there with you when all that stuff with Noah’s dad happened. Iv’e seen you struggle. I saw how hard you tried not to ask your mom for money to buy him a box a pampers because his dad couldn’t even get that. I saw you ask around for jobs. I saw you and I’ve seen the dirty looks people gave you when you walked around with your round belly. I’ve seen some of you closest “friends” turn around and stab you in the back and told people things that you told them. Did you once tell other people their secrets? No! I heard you cry as well. You cry a lot actually! I don’t know if you cry because you’re happy or actually sad/mad/tires/or just had enough. You are very confusing at times. You think way too much sometimes. You second guess yourself a lot. Sometimes you think you’re not good enough. YOU ARE! I have notice the changes and let me tell you I love the bangs even tough sometimes they just don’t listen! When has your hair actually listened???? It has a mind of its own. I know you’ve been going to the gym too. Next time try not to care about other people and do what you went there to do! Your style has changed you have a very casual style but you try to make it your own. You no longer wear what you think people like you wear what YOU like. Your confidence has changed as well. I remember when you use to think it was you (you know what im talking about) it wasn’t you at all and im glad you see it now. You are beautiful and I hear you say it every now and then. I see you know how to smile now lol remember when you would never show teeth and now that’s all you show. Freckles oh dear freckles. She disliked you for a long time and now look at her she loves you guys. We thought Kason would get lucky and have you guys too but yeah that didn’t happen. You are doing everything you can to finish your studies. I’m so proud of you. Sometimes its okay to feel over whelmed its okay to cry and want to punch the wall because it seems like nobody gets you. I get you. You have turned to God many times but some reason you tend to get distracted and that’s what we need to work on. Michelle even said it “you need to get out your comfort zone girl!!” shes right try new things! Except sushi! we have already tried that and we both agreed we did not like it. Whether people see it or not just know you are doing what you can. You are a wonderful mom. You are not perfect you make mistakes. But you try and be the best for Noah and Kason. Talking about Noah let go of all the blame haven’t you notice how happy he is. You have done and still continue to do everything for him. You have really learned to stand up for yourself you don’t take much from people! Go YOU! From all the friends you had how many are still there? Just know those people around you now although you don’t have a big group just know they care for you and want the best. Oh and cool it on the neat freak part God knows you make your own self mad.
To sum it all up Miriam I want you to know that although you are confusing, clumsy, caring, loving (we all know how attached you can get), and giving that makes YOU (US) who we are. Don’t ever let people influence you I know sometimes you want to change all this soft parts of you but that’s what makes you beautiful from the inside. Sometimes you think you are and old soul I think you really are, because some of the things you do are just plain old lol. It’s okay to do things for you sometimes like your nails or shopping for yourself (girl just be careful with your nails because you are already missing one.) just because you are a mom doesn’t mean you cant be 22. Love yourself its okay to do it. Its okay to be mad, sad, happy, excited, and bubbly. You are more fun when you are bubbly. Matter of fact you are more fun and beautiful when you are being you. Next time you get that idea to build a fort with Noah and sleep in the living room…Just do it those are memories you ad Noah will have and if Tee doesn’t want to join its okay. Live for you. Yes like I said you are a mom but its okay to think about yourself. Every choice you make will effect them but we all know you have made decisions that were awesome.
And if anybody tells you, you cant just remember that they are not me therefor they cannot tell you what I cant and can do!
Im surprised you didn’t cry you are usually crying your eyes out by now.
Write me sometimes I do get lonely you know!
Love Me (you)
Does this make we weird lol oh well it needed to be done
I guess this month is not my month even tough MY birthday month is this month!
last Sunday I went to the ER because I started feeling flu like symptoms. No we when I get sick I can usually deal with the feeling I don’t complaint much. BUT it was not like that this tome around. I felt so bad. My body was aching,head was hurting,chills, and fever. I had just gone to church that morning so in my head thinking this is Gods way of punishing me for not going like I should be Lol but that’s another story. The thing that was different about all the other times I felt ill was that my left breast was hurting as well. I started to feel for lumps but found none. The lady who took care of me said I didn’t have the flu or mastitis. She dismissed it as the underwire on my bra might be the one to blame. She still prescribed tamiflu just in case my symptoms got worse. I heard tamiflu was not safe to take while Breastfeeding so you could already imagine my dilemma. I just took Tylenol for the body aches and headache. they helped a bit but really all I wanted to do was sleep so I basically spend the night over my moms house so she could watch the kids since tee works. She was so helpful I got a lot of rest.my breast was still hurting and I actually found a little lump Monday so I made an appointment for Tuesday at my regular doctor to make sure it wasn’t something to be really worried about. My doctor told me it was mastitis and that is why I felt the way I did she prescribed me some medicine and I asked her like 15 times if it was safe to take while Breastfeeding and not once did she say no lol (I am very paranoid if you can’t tell) she said to keep y left breast empty and to massage it. I have to take the pills every 6 hrs. Which has proved to be very tricky for me Now Noah has an ear infection so his on antibiotics as well. I feel better now those two days I felt horrible!
I put that question mark because nothing new really happened he was sick for a while. He had a very bad stomach virus so he was not himself. During that time all he wanted was to be held. He was not himself :/ it sucked to see him that way. Around that time Noah was sick and so was Tee. I ended up sick as well but just with a 24 hr. bug. So it’s not really an update I have been keeping a a list of the things he has done so far and I’m excited to share those with you guys:)
We didn’t do anything Christmas Eve I think we just slept lol. Noah went over his dad’s house so I picked him up early Christmas morning (he was at my moms) he fussed a little since I woke him up, but hey it was for a good cause.
When I got home I took one last picture of my tree (I still haven’t taken it down. Was I suppose to do afte New Years? is there like a rule? So many questions and nobody answers) then we sat and got ready to open up our goodies. Terrence and I decided on not getting each other anything.But other people (my mom, his stepmom and dad sent us some gifts)
Noah was so excited and happy with what he got. Kason was thankful for all the rapping paper and how he received. He was not interested in the toys he got. This was our first Christmas together as a family. After opening gifts we cleaned up got ready and went to his aunts house then to my moms. I hope you all had a wonderful day that day!
Here are se pictures out Christmas was pretty simple nothing major but it was very special to us