IM BACK!!!

IM 100% BACK!!!

I have finished my classes and my next semester does not start till next march i believe!!! I passed both of my classes thank God!

I am glad i finished because now i can actually dedicate time to my blog.

I have some things i need to share after being in my apartment for almost a year i am finally getting around to decorating and i want to share that with you guys. I am starting by room. My first project is my kitchen/dinning room, 2nd. living room, 3rd. Rest room, 4th. Noahs room, and lastly our room.

I am not sure what i am doing with Noahs room but i will be letting him pick out a theme. Since we share rooms with Kason i plan on making him his own little space and decorating that our room is pretty big so i have a lot to work with.

 

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Life has happened!

I havent been able to write lately, ugh… Well i just been really busy with schooll, work and the kids.

Noah has been on this thing i like to call “Grandma Syndrome” he cries, kicks, and yells for her. Its so crazy i really dont know what to do. I know he loves her and that he basically grew up with her since we lived with her since he was a newborn. I know i cannot tell him he cant see his grandma but sometimes it hurts my feelings. I seriously dont know what to do.

Kason is great he has no “grandma syndrome” and i hope he does not ever get it. I have so many videos to share!!!!!!

School is so hectic i am doing two online classes that end around the same time so you can only imagone how hard im trying to keep up with both of them. I love my classes especially my human behavior one. It really explains why we behave the way we do.

I havent been able to get ready early in the morning so my signature look is the messy bun!

Story of my life!

Cloth diapers, school, and rashes

I got my cloth diapers already! I finally washed them yesterday and i will be using them today i know for a fact that they won’t last me till tomorrow lol but its okay. Remember i only got 5 so far. I will take pictures of him wearing them and post them later so wish us luck!

School is going awesome. I must admit i was putting things off and i had to remind my self that the classes were paid with my OWN money so if i don’t  do what i am suppose to do thats money going down the drain. I am taking “Understanding Human Behavior” and i like it. It gives you advice or more like tips on how to deal with certain patients that i will encounter once i become an MA.

Rashes oh Lordy Lord Kason gets one rash after another. He recently has this “rash” on his face its just red sometimes it goes away and but once he starts messing with it, it comes back. His skin is so dry i use avenno but i think that makes it worse. Any suggestions mommys out there? He also has this rash on his neck his grandma told me to put powder she said its most likely because he sweats and since he has rolls for days lol it might irritate him. If they don’t get better by next week i will be taking him to his pediatrician.

I would post some adorable pictures but I’m working hard hhhmmmmmmhh… Okay I’m not working that hard lol but my phone is dying so I’ll do it on my next post. 

Oh i will also be doing Friday Favorites (mommy edition) at the end of each month. I am trying out some new stuff and i will be sharing my opinions:) Some may or may not be mommy or kid related but most of them will.

College here I come!

I was going to go back to college while I was pregnant with Kason but I didn’t. My reason is the followinf I just wasn’t up for it. I was so tired and sick all the time I didnt want to be around total strangers.

Oh by the way I am going to college to become an MA (medical assistant) I want to be an RN too but eeehh we will see once I’m done. I havr always wanted to go to cosmetology but their schedule never works with mine.

Yesterday since I was doing absolutely nothing I thought to myself “hhmmm I should really go look at falls semester schedule and see what classes they are offering.” so I did just that.  They were offering classes I could take so I just went ahead and emailed my advisor. The thing about my advisor is that she takes her sweet time to answer. I sent the email 3 times and the last one did the trick. I still have time to register. Registration doesn’t start till 8-06 so that gives me time to save up for books and to pay my classes I pay for them out of pocket.

I’m super excited about this im only taking two for now since I will be taking care of both of my kids. This classes are online so I won’t be leaving them. I eventually will have to leave them because I can’t take all my classes online. I wish we coul but we can’t.

So now my time will be divided between being a mom, house work, making time for my hunny, & college!!

I will write how it all works out when i start my classes.

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15 & Pregnant My Story

Okay so we will start from the beginning and mine starts here.

I am doing this because I want y’all to get to know who i am & what made me who i am. I wont add every detail but i will put the very important stuff. I hope that somebody reads my story and gets something out of it.

Being pregnant at the age of 15 was not in my agenda i had just moved schools and made new friends the year before. I was a Sophomore when i became pregnant it was towards the end of that year. I already knew i was i was just trying to make myself believe that i wasn’t and that i was just super late! I took a pregnancy test and not even a minute later i saw the little plus sign! So many things were running trough my head at that time. My sons dad was there while i took and he looked like he didn’t know what to think or say. We both knew that the life that we knew was long gone. At first only his mom knew i was so scared to tell my parents. A little side note my mom and dad gave me everything they would buy me anything i wanted i am the only girl they have so they did everything for their only girl. I can admit that i was a spoiled little girl and that sometimes i didn’t appreciate them like i should. Back to the story telling my mom was really difficult he actually told her all he said was “Miriam is pregnant” her response was “I am not telling your dad you are” She was heartbroken i know she was but at that time me being 15 and thinking that i ruled the world i really didn’t care for her feelings. I actually told her i was moving out! My mom then said “if you walk out that door you won’t ever be allowed back” So yeah i stayed home not before telling her that i disliked her. School continued i told my friends the news us being teenagers we only saw the clothes and the cute little baby things we didn’t see what actually comes with a baby (important things not the material stuff) My friends remained my friends but i couldn’t do what they did. I walked around the school with my big belly and people would just stare i wasn’t the only pregnant student oh no sir i wasn’t! There was a couple of other girls who had also gotten pregnant during the school year.

Then summer vacations came this was the time when i was always with my sons father this is when everything fell apart (it was just the beginning) He would always break up with me it was an every month thing. At the time he wanted me to move in but i didn’t because my mom told me that it wouldn’t work out. He thought i listened to my mom too much and that would get him angry. I guess he thought he was the boss now. Summer for me consisted of getting everything ready for Noah. This is when my girly room because his room every inch of my room was no longer mine. I was so overwhelmed i told my mom “i don’t want his stuff in my closet where will my clothes go!” and i remember what she told me vividly “This is what happens when you do things that you have no business doing, do you want me to put them in my room? because that isn’t happening this is your baby therefor it belongs in your room.” She was right my life was no longer just my life it was Noahs life! Everything i did would have to be thought over not just to make sure i wanted it but because every choice i made will somehow effect Noah.

Summer was over and my relationship with his dad was just going down the drain. I only went back to school for the first day because later that day my doctor said my blood pressure was too high and needed to be home resting.

I went to the hospital on August 27 because amniotic fluid was leaking yeah scary nobody ever told me that could happen. I was in labor for a long time and all this time his dad was just sitting there listening to music. I had to get an emergency c-section because i was not progressing. I gave birth to Noah on August 28,2008 he was 8 pounds 7.8 oz big baby i know. I stayed in the hospital for three days and not once did my dad stop by my mom was there everyday helping me get up and bathing. I was in so much pain.

When we got discharged we went to my moms house and she was the only one helping she would bring me food and help me get up to go to the restroom and shower. His dad was there but he was never really hands on.

Fast forward to when Noah was almost a year his dad ended up breaking up with me and dating some other girl who was not a mom. I was really heartbroken and it took me a while to get back on my feet. I graduated with honors on June 2010 i did it all with my son and i am so proud of myself. His father sees him every other weekend but we don’t speak at all.

From all this i have learned that once you decide to bring another human being into this world you better be prepared for your life to do a complete 360! I don’t regret my son he has made me who i am today. I always say that we grew up together because we did. He thought me so many things. He thought me how to love and how to smile again. He was and still is my motivation to keep going, I also learned that people aren’t really who they say they are because during that whole relationship i was blinded and i did everything and anything to keep it alive. I lowered myself so many times to make it  work. I blamed myself for things that weren’t my fault. It broke me down but i met God He got me out of that dark and deep hole i was in. I believe that when somebody goes trough something very negative something positive and beautiful comes out of it and i can truly say that in my case it worked out. I became closer to my mom, my son became my best friend and I met God and trusted Him with everything.